Zealous Retaliation

I don't know who you are,

but your comment triggered me to blog after a whole month of hiatus.

It could have been meant for you if you are who i think you are.

But from your choice of words and writing style,

You may not be the intended.

I doubt the intended would know who he or she is.

I agree that "lost connections" are irreversable.

But there is no harm in trying to salvage what is worth your time.

Thank you for reassuring me that there are still people around me who cares.

-may-

Caught Bride Wars last night.

Teared a little.

Made me think of my BFF.

Here's to 10 years of knowing you, Biatch. =)

Love you to bits!

Oh em gee.... we are old. bluergh!

-may-

About to be a corporate slave in about 4 days.

I will miss the lunches we have together for the past 2 and a half months.

I am glad that we had the time to bond and make everything stronger.

I am fearful of the changes to come.

I am afraid of the time we will NOT have together.

Oh God, I hate changes.

Help.

-may-

So you've heard of my infamous bitterness.

So you've experienced it too.

So what?

Leave me be.

I need to shrink my head.

-may-

 

I was reading someone's blog and was pretty inspired by her wardrobe.

I need to be sent to US too. Le sigh.

God, I need a truckload of cash to equip myself with power suits.

I would just have to make-do with my existing wardrobe.

The one thing I am unsatisfied with my job:

The lack of freedom in my working attire.

Black shoes: Check

Black stockings: Check

Red suit: You're fired.

Everything has got to be in neutral colors.

Now where's the fun in that?

-may-

Once i sign that letter.

It's official.

Great.

Goodbye to my dwindling social life.

Hello to paperwork and brainstorms.

I am so employed.

Woo Hoo. Really. Woo Hoo.

I thank the Lord that He worked His magic.

It all turned out just the way i wanted it to.

I am blessed.

-may-

Absence make the heart grow fonder.

Out of sight, out of mind.

Both works for me.

Only to a certain extend.

I believe the longest absence I have the threshold for is probably 6 months. (tried and tested)

It all goes downhill from then on.

I hope i never have to be apart from the person i love. Again.

Heck with it, if he moves... i'm packing my bags and moving too.

I'm putting down my ego and sticking to him.

-may-

Certain apects of my life are going amazingly well.

Some not so great.

In summary:

I found God.  

God  found me when i needed Him most.

Didn't survive the dreaded LDR.

Learned that love grows periodically.

Alcohol tolerance going down to -0.

Patience went up by 80%.

Bitterness level very unstable.

I feel very much loved in all ways.

2008 taught me a great deal. =)

-may-

Zoukout came and went.

Nat came and went.

Nicole went.

You stayed.

=)

Damn, I want those bags.

-may-

I never would've thought you had such an impact on me.

I thought I could handle whatever you threw at me.

Your sarcasm, your lame-ness, your tantrums.

I thought wrong.

I am vulnerable and I am not afraid to admit it.

I broke down and that sucks.

I guess I really am in love with you.

End me off my misery. =P

*bangs head on the dashboard*

-may-

Don't ask me that question. Ask yourself.

I am trying so hard to be your friend.

You refuse to.

I want to talk to you.

You shut me out.

I want you to know.

You choose to ignore.

Tell me if you don't know how to deal.

I am not afraid to say that I am weak.

I am afraid that I will lose you as a friend.

-may-

Too much too fast?

Sometimes it just gets me wondering.

I know how i feel.

i know how you feel.

You have no idea how easy you've got it.

Because I've learned to trust and chill (pun not intended).

Because you actually give me assurance. =)

-may-

Mr. Too-Tall-For-His-Own-Good.

Miss Sunshine.

Bliss.

-may-

When it seems like the world around you's breaking
and it feels like there's no one else around you
And it's quiet there's a silence in the darkness
and it sounds like the carnival is over

As you walk in the crowded empty spaces
And you stare at the emptiness around you
You wanna go to the city and the bright lights
And get away from the sinners that surround you

'Cause I will be there and you will be there
We'll find each other in the dark
And you will see and I'll see it too
'Cause we'll be together in the dark

'Cause if it's coming for you
then it's coming for me
'cause I will be there
'Cause we need each other in the dark

And if it terrifies you then it terrifies me
'Cause I will be there
So we've got each other in the dark

As I look in to the sky the sparks bright as ice
You want me to take you over there
I want you to stay with me
'cause you're not the only one
The only one

No no
Don't worry you're not the only one

'Cause if it's coming for you
then it's coming for me
But I will be there
'Cause we need each other in the dark

And if it's panicking you then it's panicking me
But I will be there
So we've got each other in the dark

In the dark
In the dark
We'll need each other in the dark
In the dark
In the dark
We'll hold each other in the dark
Now we're save together in the dark
'Cause we've got each other in the dark

-may-

"O"kay.

I am sorry that i may have hurt someone in the process.

I am sorry that I did not handle it in a better way.

But i am not sorry that i found YOU.

I am not sorry that I am actually happy for the first time in months.

-may-

By the way, the YOU is someone new. =)